If you’ve been on the Internet this week, you’ve probably seen one or a million memes poking fun at British GQ’s interview with bizarre Hollywood couple Megan Fox and Machine Gun Kelly — and if you’re really brave, you’ve actually read the whole thing. In between the far too many references to “dark fairytales” and Fox admitting that MGK’s line “I am weed” actually worked on her, there’s one brief conversation that makes me wonder if Fox is having a bit of a spiritual renaissance.
The interviewer asks Fox how she feels about the way the media has finally acknowledged how they mistreated her earlier in her career. Like most young Hollywood women in the 2000s, Fox’s image went through a rollercoaster in the media cycle. She was on the cover of every magazine as the next big sex symbol, and then quickly became the focus of tabloids spreading rumors that she was difficult to work with, had many “issues,” and was leading American culture past a point of no return.
In the midst of a tumultuous media cycle, Fox had a particularly interesting interview with Esquire where she discussed her faith publicly for the first time. To the shock of many, Fox said she was a devout Christian. She was raised in a charismatic Christian home, was baptized in the Spirit and regularly spoke in tongues.
“I have seen magical, crazy things happen,” Fox told Esquire. “I’ve seen people be healed. Even now, in the church I go to, during Praise and Worship I could feel that I was maybe getting ready to speak in tongues, and I’d have to shut it off because I don’t know what that church would do if I started screaming out in tongues in the back.
“It feels like a lot of energy coming through the top of your head — I’m going to sound like such a lunatic — and then your whole body is filled with this electric current. And you just start speaking, but you’re not thinking because you have no idea what you’re saying. Words are coming out of your mouth, and you can’t control it. The idea is that it’s a language that only God understands. It’s the language that’s spoken in heaven. It’s called ‘getting the Holy Ghost.'”
Fox’s experience with God and the Holy Ghost seemed at odds with the image she was putting forward — or rather, the image media was putting forward for her. Fox has been outspoken about how she never wanted to be, as Esquire put it, a “sexual prop.” The media had other plans.
In the past decade, Fox slipped into a bit of media silence, doing small parts here and there (her biggest roles included Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and a few episodes of New Girl) but largely tried to stay out of the limelight. It wasn’t until her divorce with Brian Austin Green and her new relationship with Machine Gun Kelly that she stepped back into it. The last year in the media has been seemingly different for Fox, as there has been a positive shift in pop culture journalism’s treatment of women.
Which brings us to the British GQ interview. In response to the interviewer’s question about the media’s mistreatment and re-evaluation of their coverage, Fox explain she “went on a spiritual quest.” She explains that she’s done a lot of work to make peace and move on from feeling like a victim.
“I did a lot of work to remove that feeling of being a victim and to realize that it was a lesson. So there was purpose in it and I didn’t have to suffer any more,” Fox explained. “It’s [made me grow] into a much more interesting human being than I would have been without that. So it allows you the space to have gratitude for something that previously you felt persecuted by. That’s the one thing in my life I did do a lot of work on, I do feel free from. So it’s not that I feel vindicated. I’m beyond that, because I don’t need to be right about it any more. Back then I was hurt – of course I did suffer tremendously – but, you know, I’m not looking for payback. I don’t need an apology.”
This is an awfully gracious statement. Forgiving others, particularly when they have done something hurtful and wrong, is never easy. As Colossians 3:13 says, Christians are called forgive others as the Lord forgave you. This difficult lesson is something that Fox seems to have learned and lived the hard way. And it’s a good reminder that if someone can forgive an entire industry for horribly mistreating her, maybe we can forgive someone in our life for their minor offenses.
Fox doesn’t go into much more details about her faith, and MGK remains largely silent throughout this discussion. It’s unclear if Fox is still speaking in tongues or “getting the Holy Ghost,” but she seems to be open to extending grace to others, which is a pretty good place to be.